Noisecreep: So how did you originally discover something was amiss with you? Do you think the beginning signs of the illness?
Nergal: I launch out that I was ill in the hospital when the diagnosis came. It was in August [2010], but the symptoms came about two months prior to when I was diagnosed with leukemia. The symptoms were I had bumps all over my head. Everywhere where my hair was I has like this skin infection or something underneath my fingers. I view it was a skin infection or skin disease or allergy or something. I had no clue. I left for a spell and it wouldn't disappear. It was even there. I felt fine but I was playing shows every day. I was drinking alcohol. Everything was fine. This time, I would have diarrhea pretty much all that time. I would lose weight but I was in good spirits all the time. It was weird. After that, because of the concerts starting, I started having breathing problems and started sweating like a pig. Two years ahead I officially got to the hospital it was pretty disastrous.
Noisecreep: Does this whole experience seem surreal to you, that you got a clear bill of health while other patients may not?
Nergal: To be honest, for some reason, I was aware. Everything was so large [for me]. I recognize there were people dying and people going in black body bags. I saw that. With the others being there, it could find to anyone there, but everyone else's health cases are different. For some reason, I had to regain strength, and in my case it's loss to be not as threatening and not as dangerous as others. I had this trust and I never questioned it. I never doubted that. On one hand, I'm relatively young when this happened to me. I was in very good work because my whole life I've been taking good deal of myself. I was never a hard drinker or doing drugs. I was doing sports. Probably if it had been a different person, [there may be] more hurt and may go probably the other way. I'm saying I had one hundred percent faith and I was mindful that everything was so great. I was making plans for BEHEMOTH. I've been working. not every day. but constantly I've been working on new projects. a DVD and a word and doing some interviews here and there. I tried to have plans. That's me thriving through the whole process. Stay there and be decadent. Stay there in the hospital and go, "Let's see what happens. Let's see what doom brings." No fuckin' way! It's myself who determines my doom. That's how I see it.
Noisecreep: During this time, your fanbase really came together for you.
Nergal: It was crazy. I never expected that. I don't expect massive feedback from people. I'm not that egotistic like when I get sick, everyone's going to serve me out. Let's see what happens. If I think something to people, they're leaving to serve me out. They're leaving to make me support. I'm not that arrogant to say that everyone's going to hold me. I was fucking shocked! All the metal community would avail me out and gave me strength. It definitely kept me motivated during this difficult time. It meant a lot.
Noisecreep: When do you resume playing shows?
Nergal: We're doing some shows in Poland in October. I'm excited about it. We're probably doing some Asian and Australian dates around December. Full-on European and U.S. headlining tours are planned for spring 2012. Get ready. It's release to be a full-on tour. We want to perfect the "Evangelion" cycle and so we start recording the following record. We're not rushing. We wish to make sure that the return tour is planned with pyro and the craziness. BEHEMOTH is better than before!
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